WAITING

finally~finish my exam...the process very smooth...eventhought i got part time job before the exam...
i excel myself in the 1st week of my nescafe promoter job...top perfomance...because of the offer at the location...and plus a little of my effort...
all the difficulties and chanllenges are overcame successfully...
well...how about us?

cao ge song--shu dao wu da ying wo

第一次看着你 就为你心动(di yi ci kan zhe ni jiu wei ni xin dong)
聪明的我 怎能让你走(cong ming de wo,zen neng rang ni zou)
第二次看见你 我竟然失控(di er ci kan jian ni, wo jing ran shi kong)
是我的错 请你原谅我(shi wo de cuo, qing ni yuan liang wo)
第三次看见你 想要告诉你(di san ci kan jian ni, xiang yao gao shu ni)
我真的爱你 是真的爱你(wo zhen de ai ni, shi zhen de ai ni)
第四次看着你 我有些要求(di si kan zhe ni, wo you xie yao qiu)
希望你能够 安安静静地聆听(xi wang ni neng gou, an an jing jing de ling ting)
1让我保护你(1 rang wo bao hu ni)
2让我照顾你(2 rang wo zhao gu ni)
3所有的要求不能当作游戏(3 suo you de yao qiu bu neng dang zuo you xi)
4接受这命运(4 jie shou zhe ming yun)
5永远不分离(5 yong yuan bu fen li)
那最后一个一定要说你愿意(na zui hou yi ge yi ding yao shou ni yuan yi)
wanna be your lover i wanna be your man
我只要你开心多一点(wo zhi yao ni kai xin duo yi dian)
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福的永远(gei ni xing fu de yong yuan)
第一次看着你 就为你心动(di yi ci kan zhe ni, jiu wei ni xin dong)
聪明的我 怎能让你走(cong ming de wo, zen neng rang ni zou)
第二次看见你 我竟然失控(di er ci kan jian ni, wo jin ran shi kong)
是我的错 请你原谅我(shi wo de cuo, qing ni yuan liang wo)
第三次看见你 想要告诉你(di san ci kan jian ni, xiang yao gao shu ni)
我真的爱你 是真的爱你(wo zhen de ai ni, shi zhen de ai ni)
第四次看着你 我有些要求(di si ci kan zhe ni, wo you xia yao qiu)
希望你能够 安安静静地聆听(xi wang ni neng gou, an anjing jing de ling ting)
one让我保护你(one, rang wo bao hu ni)
two让我照顾你(two rang wo zhao gu ni)
three所有的要求不能当作游戏(three, suo you de yao qiu bu neng dang zuo you xi)
four接受这命运(four, jie shou zhe ming yun)
five永远不分离(five, yong yuan bu fen li)
说你愿意(shou ni yuan yi)
wanna be your lover i wanna be your man
我只希望给你多一点(wo zhi xi wang gei ni duo yi dian)
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福每一天(gei ni xing fu mei yi tian)
因为我 wanna be your lover i wanna be your man(ying wei wo......)
我只要你开心多一点(wo zhi yao ni kai xin duo yi dian)
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福到永远(gei ni xing fu dao yong yuan)
你说你害怕 因为受过伤(ni shou ni hai pa,yin wei shou guo shang)
不需要害怕 因为我不是他(bu xu yao hai pa,yin wei wo bu shi ta)
wanna be your lover i wanna be your man
我只希望给你多一点(wo zhi xi wang gei ni duo yi diaan)
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福每一天(gei ni xingfu mei yi tian)
因为我wanna be your lover i wanna be your man(yin wei wo.......)
我只要你开心多一点(wo zhi yao ni kai xin duo yi dian)
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福到永远(gei ni xing fu dao yong yuan)

i never know i was an angel to u. PRAWN, CHOI and HUI.

in the end, sacrifice my choir concert...
my carnation project is changed to nescafe coffee
higher paid...longer period.
two mths job...for the person who never like to drink coffee.

have to learn to love drinking coffee regarding all the benefits of it.
to excell myself for the job, i have to do this-----drink coffee.

final exam is coming.
it is the 1st time i work at the exam period.
i must be able to maintain both my job and the study
to achieve 3.75 CGPA...to be the top promoter...to be a good teacher as well...
haha...sounds very greedy with so many ambitions.

to prawn

juz get to know u saw my blog
actually i m leading u to view it indirectly.
i donno how u and him view abt me.
anyway, it doesn't matter.
i am as wat i judge myself, not u!

when reviewing the past...i find that actually i don love him much.
i love myself more than everything. preserving myself in front of u all.
since i study psychology, i realize about it.
i am acquiring to receive more and more loves and concerns from others.

we came from different background.
u all won't and never will understand how the feel likes.
the feeling of being discriminated by the society about what my biological mother.
the feeling of unloved by my biological mother...lacking of father love...
do u know how envy i am about u all having a perfect family?
u gain the attentions by your parents, get their love and accompanies.
while, how about me?
i am just a bit fortune than my siblings.
when u still a little gal, do u ever being abandoned at home alone when u r damn in sick.
i guess never.
do u ever experience being alone home to wait mother home?

u know, how hated i am about those who come from perfect and happiness family?
how i wish to see when one days, ur parents leave u, what will u do?
how i wish to see those protected one in the state of helpless and hopeless in one day...
i know it is a wicked thought
but, i admit i truly as this person before.

although not from a perfect family, my family was in happiness once.
until the events...
it is totally broken!!!!
do u know how hard I went through in my secondary life?

well...i changed ady. i am no longer the one u all used to know.

when i sense the happiness of other especially in my working place. i feel glad for them. bless them.from the moment, i know, i am not the one i used to.
although i am busy to earn money, for the soka society, for the study, although there is some problem with my current bf and my familyproblem...my heart is full of energy to challenge.

my change is leading to my sister, mum...change...my family became better.i will achieve my goals in one day.

finally.....all the stuff finished ady...my presentation...counseling skill assessment...assignment...midterm...all pass okok...i my try my best; and everytime my effort shows my improvement...i might not be the best, but i m the best when i try my best.

but.........how about us?still miss u deeply...no matter what u said, i won't feel hurt...as i numb ady...the feeling of wanting, needing, loving still there...

anyway, i will put my family as priority...to make the happiness to my family, is the main goal of my life. to prove the importance of education and culture are the main ways to guide people towards victory, but not the violence!violence and punishment (caning)are not the only way to discipline my younger brother, there are a lot of other way~hope my change u guys will find, my cchange will bring revolution of the fate.

appreciate to gohonzon

very happy whenever i think of how smooth i went through in these two days.

i been in trouble...about my job...choir practice...concert...
don't know how to adjust about them! since my choir will be having concert in the next month. Thursdays choir practice is changed to sat for those working people can come for the practice...but i have to work for weekends part time...then i won't be able to come for the practice...however, the concert is important as well...
another news i received from my child care center director, she ask whether i can come more days...means the amount of work is increased...WOW...there will be final sem exam in this month too...WOW!! so many things and work...how can i deal with this?

i pray to the Gohonzon about my current situation. pray for a good arrangement, i don't want to give up of any job. well..i received call from my supervisor that he changed my project...from the two weeks projects becomes the one week only!!! a bit pain because the salary is cut into half...but i can participate my practice more often...at the time can work to earn money

all the things was gone through well...i had product training in damansara, class,need to send printing material,and still had work in evening, need to prepare my midterm and my assessment when night. well...things gone through smoothly...i got to see my dear when i go to send the printing material...although i didn't prepare my midterm well, i can finish it by 'discussing' with my friends. the lecturer allowed us to do so.my voice is what a damn...luckily my practical assessment is good overall. my boss of the child care center is kind, she gave th salary on time. actually i almost have to declare bankrupt...

hehe^^can have a good rest now...nite^^