a sense of contented comes into my mind...a very little things...
today i go to collect the photostated books...during the tutorial class, my classmates saw the books...they thinks the books are very helpful to us...want to have a copy too...
feel very happy...another new deal business for u...
a very simple things can make me feel happiness...able to do things which is helpful to u...i am contented about...really...
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
getting sick...lose my voice...a lot of things still need to carry on...choir practice,counselling skill assessment,my teaching class...all need to speak...hope all will be all rite as soon as possible!!
poor fish...being bully by the executive supervisor of my company...my two weeks part time job changed to one week only...T.T...sob sob sob...
well...my voice is what a damaged but sexy in these few days...if...........then i also can't work for this weekends...so...
poor fish...being bully by the executive supervisor of my company...my two weeks part time job changed to one week only...T.T...sob sob sob...
well...my voice is what a damaged but sexy in these few days...if...........then i also can't work for this weekends...so...
Monday, March 30, 2009
challenge:
1. to overcome the fate of my family, create a victory in life instead of following the path of the elder generation.
2. the relationship problem with justin. must have the confidence to gain happinesses.
3. health problem. pay attention on the health no matter how bz i m.
4. financial independent. must be able to pursue the tertiary education without giving pressure to the family by getting the scholarship and loan,working part time.
5. time management.
6. self esteem
7. get 3.75 CGPA.
8. the success of the choir's mini concert and the success in 2010 cultural seminar.
revolution of my life.
1. to overcome the fate of my family, create a victory in life instead of following the path of the elder generation.
2. the relationship problem with justin. must have the confidence to gain happinesses.
3. health problem. pay attention on the health no matter how bz i m.
4. financial independent. must be able to pursue the tertiary education without giving pressure to the family by getting the scholarship and loan,working part time.
5. time management.
6. self esteem
7. get 3.75 CGPA.
8. the success of the choir's mini concert and the success in 2010 cultural seminar.
revolution of my life.
Gone
our love gone...
since the day...i proposed to break...u din't say anything to remain the relationship...i've been very suffering when i to be with u...u r very strict to me...many of small matters to me...u can't withstand...scold me...until that time u want to make things clear via the phone... then i know how much are those small matters mean to u...
a very small matter...but u scold me as if it is very serious things...a very serious things, u didn't scold me as it is very serious one.
u blame me about ur result...because i cause u lack of sleep and mental for the exam, cause u unable to do the revision... u blame about my careless causing you injured...everything you blame on me, is it fair to me?u fail to score on your result, is you didn't study earlier before the exam... don't say u have no time... is excuse...u rather spend on ur facebook, ur game even you have no time, but not for ur study or me...u blame me...
am i a doll of you? u treat me as what exactly?like those cheap cheap girl?...lose control then no need to take the responsible?
it only about one and half mth we didn't see each other...u say u have no more feel to me...all the last few things u did for me which i sense ur love...while, to u,it was very long time ady...bt it only not more than two mths!!!
i shouldn't say break...it very serious...but how about u? i won't say about the words u use...every u scold me over the small matters, do u know how much i hurt?do u thinks i do all those the 'small matters'purposely?
actually i forget all about these ady...i think and think again... about our relation...nobody is perfect in the world, including me...what is main reasons i like you? what cause me want to be with you?it is your seriousness on ur work...we are different in many ways...perhaps we will grow from each other's...in strength and weaknesses...we will strive...to make the life better...it is the relationship i been looking for...
as i know nobody is perfect in the world...how can i say break over those small matters i can't withstand? then i will never get a true love...never get my spouse...
the fact is... u r selfish in r love...perhaps u never love me truly...u love urself more than u love me...u r protecting urself...perhaps it is because of the past experience makes u wanting to protect urself...perhaps u r the selfish one actually...
do u know how much u hurt me dat day until i want to break? a very small matter...i did it accidentally...i lock the lock for safety...bt...ur mum didn't say much on this...she just asked who did it...and reminded me never lock that lock...instead;u scold me badly...as if things very serious...u said i intend to cause u all being scolded by ur dad...
my tear nearly drop...it is not the 1st time u scold me over the small matter...i eager to run away from ur house immediately...scare other will find out i was crying...i bear...bear not to cry...pretend nothg happen...
u find i was annoying u that few days...u knew...it was semester break...my mum overseas...my bro need me for the jb business...i was going to move when my mum return...it actually no need to come bek kl so early...i still came to kl...for u...for the valentine...is my 1st time make chocolate, for the one i love...while...somethings happens in my house...my younger bro run away from the home on the day i come to kl...
u treat me coldly...again...u didn't fulfill ur promise...i didn't get the western meal u make...i make myself as the understanding one as i can...u just finish thesis and seminar on the valentine morning...u have tried ur best to finish them so that u can accompany me for the valentine nite...u r tired...that why unable to make the meal...
yet, the day after valentine...u treat me cold too...u busy...u r in hesitation about ur work...u seemed not welcome when i come to ur house...u busy for checking ur email,ur facebook, ur movie...yet, put me aside there...i still make myself understanding...but...the feeling of hurt again...from u...
my brother in the need...my younger bro run away from the house since i come kl...while..........................................what about u did to me?
finding a job is more important than everything?
then how about my younger bro?i am hiding my scare...maybe somethings bad happen to him...his safety...he lost for three days, u know??!!! my phone was kept ringing those days!!!
i was trying to repair our relationship...i believe everything can be solved when we talk...while...i never get the chance...
两个人在一起就是要学会包容，接受对方的一切。。。包容不代表容忍，接受不代表纵容。。。要学着从对方的优点成长。。。彼此学习。。。
since the day...i proposed to break...u din't say anything to remain the relationship...i've been very suffering when i to be with u...u r very strict to me...many of small matters to me...u can't withstand...scold me...until that time u want to make things clear via the phone... then i know how much are those small matters mean to u...
a very small matter...but u scold me as if it is very serious things...a very serious things, u didn't scold me as it is very serious one.
u blame me about ur result...because i cause u lack of sleep and mental for the exam, cause u unable to do the revision... u blame about my careless causing you injured...everything you blame on me, is it fair to me?u fail to score on your result, is you didn't study earlier before the exam... don't say u have no time... is excuse...u rather spend on ur facebook, ur game even you have no time, but not for ur study or me...u blame me...
am i a doll of you? u treat me as what exactly?like those cheap cheap girl?...lose control then no need to take the responsible?
it only about one and half mth we didn't see each other...u say u have no more feel to me...all the last few things u did for me which i sense ur love...while, to u,it was very long time ady...bt it only not more than two mths!!!
i shouldn't say break...it very serious...but how about u? i won't say about the words u use...every u scold me over the small matters, do u know how much i hurt?do u thinks i do all those the 'small matters'purposely?
actually i forget all about these ady...i think and think again... about our relation...nobody is perfect in the world, including me...what is main reasons i like you? what cause me want to be with you?it is your seriousness on ur work...we are different in many ways...perhaps we will grow from each other's...in strength and weaknesses...we will strive...to make the life better...it is the relationship i been looking for...
as i know nobody is perfect in the world...how can i say break over those small matters i can't withstand? then i will never get a true love...never get my spouse...
the fact is... u r selfish in r love...perhaps u never love me truly...u love urself more than u love me...u r protecting urself...perhaps it is because of the past experience makes u wanting to protect urself...perhaps u r the selfish one actually...
do u know how much u hurt me dat day until i want to break? a very small matter...i did it accidentally...i lock the lock for safety...bt...ur mum didn't say much on this...she just asked who did it...and reminded me never lock that lock...instead;u scold me badly...as if things very serious...u said i intend to cause u all being scolded by ur dad...
my tear nearly drop...it is not the 1st time u scold me over the small matter...i eager to run away from ur house immediately...scare other will find out i was crying...i bear...bear not to cry...pretend nothg happen...
u find i was annoying u that few days...u knew...it was semester break...my mum overseas...my bro need me for the jb business...i was going to move when my mum return...it actually no need to come bek kl so early...i still came to kl...for u...for the valentine...is my 1st time make chocolate, for the one i love...while...somethings happens in my house...my younger bro run away from the home on the day i come to kl...
u treat me coldly...again...u didn't fulfill ur promise...i didn't get the western meal u make...i make myself as the understanding one as i can...u just finish thesis and seminar on the valentine morning...u have tried ur best to finish them so that u can accompany me for the valentine nite...u r tired...that why unable to make the meal...
yet, the day after valentine...u treat me cold too...u busy...u r in hesitation about ur work...u seemed not welcome when i come to ur house...u busy for checking ur email,ur facebook, ur movie...yet, put me aside there...i still make myself understanding...but...the feeling of hurt again...from u...
my brother in the need...my younger bro run away from the house since i come kl...while..........................................what about u did to me?
finding a job is more important than everything?
then how about my younger bro?i am hiding my scare...maybe somethings bad happen to him...his safety...he lost for three days, u know??!!! my phone was kept ringing those days!!!
i was trying to repair our relationship...i believe everything can be solved when we talk...while...i never get the chance...
两个人在一起就是要学会包容，接受对方的一切。。。包容不代表容忍，接受不代表纵容。。。要学着从对方的优点成长。。。彼此学习。。。
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Just don't want to join any of the dcl group.
just want to isolate myself
feel tired with the social life.
Perhaps is just want to make myself alone.
busy for the work, class and the RC society recently.
although is very busy, but i am contented with my life.
perhaps is too busy, want to give myself some spaces in the isolation, and have a rest.
just want to isolate myself
feel tired with the social life.
Perhaps is just want to make myself alone.
busy for the work, class and the RC society recently.
although is very busy, but i am contented with my life.
perhaps is too busy, want to give myself some spaces in the isolation, and have a rest.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
result is out already today
thx god blessing~
i get the expected result.
although the result quite same as the 1st semester one
although i can't score as flying color
i am contented
cus my CGPA is increased
hope i can excel myself in this new semester^^
sadly, my fren confirm that she wanna to quit from the course
as i m a foreigner from other state
studying outside alone without the accompany of family is very suffering one
i once have this feeling and though.
sometimes i also want to quit
but i din't do so
it's need a lot courages to do the decision
cus i love to study the course
i learned a lot and growth from the exploration here
thx god blessing~
i get the expected result.
although the result quite same as the 1st semester one
although i can't score as flying color
i am contented
cus my CGPA is increased
hope i can excel myself in this new semester^^
sadly, my fren confirm that she wanna to quit from the course
as i m a foreigner from other state
studying outside alone without the accompany of family is very suffering one
i once have this feeling and though.
sometimes i also want to quit
but i din't do so
it's need a lot courages to do the decision
cus i love to study the course
i learned a lot and growth from the exploration here
Sunday, March 1, 2009
a sudden thought make me grow up
what happen to us recently? we din have a good talk for two weeks already. Within these two weeks, whenever i calling u, u nvr ans. even u ans me, the first thing u said to me is ' i m bz now, what's up'? then, u hang up my call. feeling hurt abt it. u nvr reply my msg or gv me a msg. i complaint. no matter how bz u r, sure u have time to short rest, eating, bathing, shiting... yet, u wont use ur time to gv me a msg to let me know u still there, rmb me eventhough how bz u r.
crying in nite~sleeplessness~insomnia~no fren(still in sem break, all bek home already)~no 'little baby' here(of coz is my lovely puppy)~juz move in a new house~facing problem adapting the new environment~feeling strange w the new housemate~having relationship problem with u~feeling of being abandon~neglected~
all the things seems pushing towards depression
life seems meaningless~nothg to do~except wasting my time on sleep, eat, shit, sleep, n missing u~sleep, eat, shit, sleep, n missing u~~~~~ keep on repeating all the step of life~rather than that, nothg to do~juz wait~wait the passing of time~then miss u again~sometime having an impulse to end my life~(of coz i wont do that la~my ego tell me cant do dat~)
chanting to pray our relationship becomes better~chanting we can tolerant each other, faithful, ~chanting for u to become success in ur career~juz wanna to spend my life with u~
perhaps, my anxiety make u feel irritating to me~u start to avoid me~
as i know, if want to have evolution and changes to the current situation, chanting and praying are not enuf for that~we need to have learn, practice, and chant to have 'luck' (means blessed)~LEARN: to change myself, my inner state of viewing things, and plus learn how to challenge when face problems wisely~PRACTICE: practice all the learned things~CHANT: chant to be blessed if there is any unexpected things happen,u r blessed to have the luck so that things will not that worse.
i need to change my attitude~as what i learned, although it seems an 'old' thinking to the new generation, i think it is the most important virtue to a lady. that is, the virtue of a lady is tolerance, accetence, understanding. tolerant to all the weaknesses of ur beloved bcus there is no one is perfect in the world~however, the capacity of tolerant of human being is limited as what u all know, practicing tolerance is a difficult task that no everyone can achieve this~so...i learn not to merely blindly tolerate, i accept them when i understand him~understand the reason of why he doing so~then accept them if reasonable~if there is possible, choose a time to have a dialog abt what is wrong and what need to change.
i do analysis abt it. i choose to believe u love me. as what we all know, faith is the most important element to maintain a healthy relationship. i believe u r struggle hard for the bussiness. there is too many reasons you need to do so. it's not simple life, and hard, u need to sacrifice ur time, ur holiday, and even ur reputation when u join the business. u might sacrifice our love if i m not understanding u. there is too many things we need to challenge in the future. a lot of obstacles in front of us. it sounds not worth to work for this business. i angry abt u not discuss with me. after a rational thought, i guess i know ur reason. u din sms, ans me call and not discuss w me bcus u scare i will be disturbing u. i might disrupt ur mind, disrupt u from doing a best decision and do the things u actually want. u r a person will think carefully before having a changes. i should faith on u.
economic corruption happen~ it is not easy to get a good job. but, i know u need to earn money for the survival. of coz, based on ur quality, there a lot job and business partners are wanting u. u know there is some possibilities to ur final sem result, if good thing happen, u can graduate proudly. or vise versa. u know it. it might influence u when u get a job. actually u told me abt that, i din listen ur words carefully. plus, u do this because of me as well. ur location with me is near if u take the business. u might not be able to accompany me for one or two mth, but it is seasoning. u'll become free and easier after the crucial period.
hope my judgement and understanding abt yours are not wrong. perhaps, there is too many your reasons i din mention, i hope we can challenge together. we can sublimate our relationship to the compassionate love which is the essential for long term relationship. Be a knowledgeable but wisely person, and be there with you.
crying in nite~sleeplessness~insomnia~no fren(still in sem break, all bek home already)~no 'little baby' here(of coz is my lovely puppy)~juz move in a new house~facing problem adapting the new environment~feeling strange w the new housemate~having relationship problem with u~feeling of being abandon~neglected~
all the things seems pushing towards depression
life seems meaningless~nothg to do~except wasting my time on sleep, eat, shit, sleep, n missing u~sleep, eat, shit, sleep, n missing u~~~~~ keep on repeating all the step of life~rather than that, nothg to do~juz wait~wait the passing of time~then miss u again~sometime having an impulse to end my life~(of coz i wont do that la~my ego tell me cant do dat~)
chanting to pray our relationship becomes better~chanting we can tolerant each other, faithful, ~chanting for u to become success in ur career~juz wanna to spend my life with u~
perhaps, my anxiety make u feel irritating to me~u start to avoid me~
as i know, if want to have evolution and changes to the current situation, chanting and praying are not enuf for that~we need to have learn, practice, and chant to have 'luck' (means blessed)~LEARN: to change myself, my inner state of viewing things, and plus learn how to challenge when face problems wisely~PRACTICE: practice all the learned things~CHANT: chant to be blessed if there is any unexpected things happen,u r blessed to have the luck so that things will not that worse.
i need to change my attitude~as what i learned, although it seems an 'old' thinking to the new generation, i think it is the most important virtue to a lady. that is, the virtue of a lady is tolerance, accetence, understanding. tolerant to all the weaknesses of ur beloved bcus there is no one is perfect in the world~however, the capacity of tolerant of human being is limited as what u all know, practicing tolerance is a difficult task that no everyone can achieve this~so...i learn not to merely blindly tolerate, i accept them when i understand him~understand the reason of why he doing so~then accept them if reasonable~if there is possible, choose a time to have a dialog abt what is wrong and what need to change.
i do analysis abt it. i choose to believe u love me. as what we all know, faith is the most important element to maintain a healthy relationship. i believe u r struggle hard for the bussiness. there is too many reasons you need to do so. it's not simple life, and hard, u need to sacrifice ur time, ur holiday, and even ur reputation when u join the business. u might sacrifice our love if i m not understanding u. there is too many things we need to challenge in the future. a lot of obstacles in front of us. it sounds not worth to work for this business. i angry abt u not discuss with me. after a rational thought, i guess i know ur reason. u din sms, ans me call and not discuss w me bcus u scare i will be disturbing u. i might disrupt ur mind, disrupt u from doing a best decision and do the things u actually want. u r a person will think carefully before having a changes. i should faith on u.
economic corruption happen~ it is not easy to get a good job. but, i know u need to earn money for the survival. of coz, based on ur quality, there a lot job and business partners are wanting u. u know there is some possibilities to ur final sem result, if good thing happen, u can graduate proudly. or vise versa. u know it. it might influence u when u get a job. actually u told me abt that, i din listen ur words carefully. plus, u do this because of me as well. ur location with me is near if u take the business. u might not be able to accompany me for one or two mth, but it is seasoning. u'll become free and easier after the crucial period.
hope my judgement and understanding abt yours are not wrong. perhaps, there is too many your reasons i din mention, i hope we can challenge together. we can sublimate our relationship to the compassionate love which is the essential for long term relationship. Be a knowledgeable but wisely person, and be there with you.
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