juz get to know u saw my blog
actually i m leading u to view it indirectly.
i donno how u and him view abt me.
anyway, it doesn't matter.
i am as wat i judge myself, not u!
when reviewing the past...i find that actually i don love him much.
i love myself more than everything. preserving myself in front of u all.
since i study psychology, i realize about it.
i am acquiring to receive more and more loves and concerns from others.
we came from different background.
u all won't and never will understand how the feel likes.
the feeling of being discriminated by the society about what my biological mother.
the feeling of unloved by my biological mother...lacking of father love...
do u know how envy i am about u all having a perfect family?
u gain the attentions by your parents, get their love and accompanies.
while, how about me?
i am just a bit fortune than my siblings.
when u still a little gal, do u ever being abandoned at home alone when u r damn in sick.
i guess never.
do u ever experience being alone home to wait mother home?
u know, how hated i am about those who come from perfect and happiness family?
how i wish to see when one days, ur parents leave u, what will u do?
how i wish to see those protected one in the state of helpless and hopeless in one day...
i know it is a wicked thought
but, i admit i truly as this person before.
although not from a perfect family, my family was in happiness once.
until the events...
it is totally broken!!!!
do u know how hard I went through in my secondary life?
well...i changed ady. i am no longer the one u all used to know.
when i sense the happiness of other especially in my working place. i feel glad for them. bless them.from the moment, i know, i am not the one i used to.
although i am busy to earn money, for the soka society, for the study, although there is some problem with my current bf and my familyproblem...my heart is full of energy to challenge.
my change is leading to my sister, mum...change...my family became better.i will achieve my goals in one day.
1 comment:
i dun mean 2 c ur blog...
i would juz.....
wanna 2 noe how s my "fren" going on..(r we?)
i dun really noe how u feel when u r in such backdround but wat i noe s....
someday!!someday i ll sure face a lot of problems but it s juz a matter of early or late....
u suffer a kind of difficulty with ur family, economics....in d past but i suffer love affair although it has been settled...
wat about d future?????
will i b having such fortunately sitting in the house n drinking d milk feed by my mother????
i hav my own plan....
after one or two years,or mayb half years more, i ll b alone,travel by myself, get ready 2 break through d hinder in front for me...we cant really predict wat we ll b like in d future,mayb i ll juz die in a crash, mayb i ll bcom a begger, or mayb i ll bcum a ppl who fail 2 pursue in all aspect...who noe?
wat i noe s i ll cherish all the things i hav at this moment,bcoz at next moment i mayb lost all of them.i hope u can understand..
N i oso hope tat ur co called luv urself d most s true(dun do anything u ll regret)no matter how much u hate me, how much u loathe of me but our secondary skool"days were a memorable time for me, indeed!!!! we shud"ty compete n compare each other virtually!!!!!
take care
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